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Even If I Fall

4.14  ·  Rating details ·  414 ratings  ·  180 reviews
A year ago, Brooke Covington lost everything when her beloved older brother, Jason, confessed to the murder of his best friend, Calvin. Brooke and her family became social pariahs, broken and unable to console one another. Brooke’s only solace remains the ice-skating rink, where she works but no longer lets herself dream about a future skating professionally.

When Brooke en
Published January 8th 2019 by Inkyard Press
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(Bern) Mom to 2 Posh Lil Divas
Jan 01, 2019 rated it really liked it
Shelves: netgalley, 2019, ya-books
"The emotion that can break your heart is sometimes the very one that heals it..." - Nicholas Sparks

A book that emotionally captures you, breaks your heart and still manages to simultaneously fill you with hope. Even if I Fall was all that for me and more!

Brooke Covington's brother is in jail after confessing to his best friend Calvin's murder and as a result her once close knit, loving family is unravelling around her. Being the family of a murderer in a small town isn't easy. They become so
Oct 24, 2018 rated it it was amazing
"The first fireworks burst in the darkening sky. I'm suddenly afraid, and my feet have barely left the ground."

Even if I Fall is a stunningly spectacular emotional read that deserves all the rare 5 stars.

Brooke's older brother Jason has been in prison serving time for the murder of his best friend Cal. Brooke and her family have been trying their best to keep the family unit together but the town continues to shun the family away for the murder.

Brooke has ultimately given up her dream of being
destiny ♡⚔♡ [howling libraries]
The world has been a scary place for Brooke ever since her older brother—her hero—confessed to murdering his best friend a year ago. She’s tried so hard to stay under the radar and keep her family afloat, but how can she be strong when the murder victim’s younger brother suddenly appears in her life, and an unexpected bond forms despite the haunting past between their families?

I love a good, tragic romantic contemporary read, so when I saw the synopsis for Even if I Fall, I was like, yo, sign
Abigail Johnson
Nov 20, 2018 marked it as i-wrote-this  ·  (Review from the author)  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: tx-set-ya
My third book is available now! Check out the book trailer if you haven't already!
Dec 11, 2018 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
I received a copy of this book from Netgalley and Harlequin Teen in exchange for my honest review.
I am completely blown away by this book. I had all the feelings and am in awe. I loved the writing style and was completely absorbed in this story. My heart broke for Brooke and her whole family .It was so painful to see how everyone suffered, but so worth it to see how they came through in the end. A magnificent story and I can’t wait to read others by This author. I just ordered some!! I will hav
Samantha (WLABB)
Dec 10, 2018 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: 2019, arcs, ya, romance
Rating: 4.5 Stars

Brooke's brother may have been the one, who committed the crime, but her whole family became prisoners. They were shunned by their neighbors and friends, and forced to give up their jobs and their dreams, but the worst part was that they abandoned each other. Then Brooke found comfort in an unlikely source, but nurturing this forbidden friendship could shatter her already fragile family.

• Pro: Abigail Johnson is so good at taking me on an emotional roller coaster! I swear I exp
Aug 19, 2018 rated it it was amazing
I loved Even If I Fall! It's an outstanding contemporary ya about Brooke, a 17 year old who has seen her family fall apart after her brother, Jason, was convicted of murdering his friend Cal. Brooke has given up on her dream of ice skating professionally to be with her her mother, who basically lives to see Jason once a week in prison, her father, who has thrown himself into his woodworking career, and her little sister, Laura, who has withdrawn from everything and everyone.

It's summer, and apar
*** 4 Stars***
Expected Publication: Jan 8th, 2019

What an emotional story this was. Brooke's older brother Jason, confessed to murdering his best friend Cal and is in prison. Brooke ends up offering to help Cal's younger brother, Heath, with a ride in the rain. From there a friendship and quite unique relationship ensues. Reading the pain that Brooke is dealing with what her brother did and Heath's pain from losing his brother, you can only imagine how damaged these two people are and why they ma
I absolutely love picking up books by Abigail Johnson because I know that I will adore them. They put your through an emotional wringer but they never disappoint. Such is true of her latest title, Even If I Fall. Stunning and heartfelt writing combine with an incredible story of loss, anger, guilt and family breakdown. A story about things you can’t explain much less come to terms with. A story of hope and love, friendship and support. Even If I Fall will entrance readers; perfect for fans of em ...more
Nov 06, 2018 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
This Ya novel which I won from Goodreads is a very emotional read. It is the story of two broken families trying to cope and heal after a murder. The son/brother of one family is murdered and the other son/brother has been convicted of the crime. Both families are broken, hurting, and deal with their loss in sad ways. An unlikely relationship develops between Brooke, the sister of the convicted, and Heath, the younger brother of the young man that died. The story is sad but so well written that ...more
Sarah {Literary Meanderings}

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** 3.5 stars **

This is going to be nearly impossible for me to review without spoiling, but I am going to try my best!

One year ago, Brooke's family fell apart. Her brother, Jason, confessed to the murder of his best friend Cal. Brooke's mom is in denial, her dad is angry and isolated, and her sister has gone silent and barely takes care of herself. Brooke feels as if she is the only one trying to hold the family together, but... She's hurting too.
Danielle (Life of a Literary Nerd)
Even If I Fall is an incredibly raw and emotional story that will pull on your heart strings. Brooke and Heath's journey to healing and acceptance was so tentative and awkward in the best possible ways. They were stilted and unsure and realistic. It was so easy to become completely invested in their story and what they were going through - no matter how not universal their situations were.

Once I picked this up, I couldn't put it down. It reminded me that getting so completely lost in a story is
This book was beautiful. Its a contemporary romance so you get some heat but nothing to drastic which I like. Our main character Brooke, and her family, are trying to heal after Brooke's older brother, Jason, did the unthinkable. The unthinkable being the murder of his best friend, Cal. The family moves to a new city and Brooke tries everything she can think of to stop from fixating on her brother's terrible crime. With everyone in town looking at her like she is a pariah she tries her best to ...more
Stephanie (earlgreyreads)
Jan 08, 2019 rated it really liked it
I loved this sweet, heartbreaking story of two families dealing with grief and tragedy. It has been a year since Brooke’s brother Jason has been in jail, since he confessed to the murder of his best friend, Cal. For a year Brooke and her family have been barely getting by. They have been living in almost isolation due to the shame and rejection of their community. When Brooke offers a ride to Cal’s brother Heath on a rainy day, she finds that he is one person who can relate to the terrible loss ...more
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***Thanks to NetGalley for providing me a complimentary copy of EVEN IF I FALL by Abigail Johnson in exchange for my honest review.***

After Jason kills his best friend Cal, his sister Brooke’s life shatters. She no longer training to become a competitive skater and studying online instead of in school. Betrayed by her friends, Brooke meets Maggie, new to town, the only person who doesn’t look at her like a murderer’s sister. To keep Maggie’s friendship, Brooke lies about her brother. The only pe
Bookgasms Book Blog
Nov 27, 2018 rated it liked it
Shelves: shelly
Of all the fascinating, heartbreaking, compelling storylines - this one just might take the cake. I was drawn to the premise immediately, and the writing sucked me right in. It's an interesting story, and the writing is smart and relatable and the whole thing felt so REAL sometimes.

That said, it wasn't a flawless read for me. I felt like the pacing was a little off and there were times I felt things got bogged down and maybe a little repetitive. It was also downright depressing sometimes. Which
Skye ~ A Court of Binge Reading
***Thank you to NetGalley and Harlequin Teen for sending me this ARC in exchange for an honest review***

“I can’t find the words to explain myself or to tell her that just because I’m not slamming things or crying doesn’t mean I’m not hurting any less.”

Prepare to feel all of the emotions with this stunningly heart-wrenching contemporary novel. This is the first book I have read by Abigail Johnson, and now I’m scrambling to add all of her others to my TBR list. That is how much I love her writi
Dec 24, 2018 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
This is a one sitting, stay up late kind of book. ICYMI Abigail Johnson is my absolute favorite writer of families and Even If I Fall just completely cements it.

How do you take two completely at-odds families and find a way to bridge them? I DON’T KNOW BUT ABIGAIL MAKES IT HAPPEN.

Brooke: ice skater, daughter, best friend, sister to a brother who killed his best friend

Heath: strong, quiet, brother to a boy who’s been killed by his best friend

You know this book is going to have a certain level o
Jillian Bielen
Aug 14, 2018 rated it it was amazing
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Rebecca Akins
Oct 30, 2018 rated it did not like it  ·  review of another edition
Everything felt very rushed in this book. I didn't connect with any of the characters.
Lily (latestreads)
Dec 25, 2018 rated it really liked it
*Thank you to NetGalley and Harlequin TEEN for providing me with an ARC of this book. Some parts may have been changed as I did not read the final book. Please know that all of the expressed thoughts are my honest opinions.

Even If I Fall was such a wonderful YA contemporary romance! When I started this book, I was a tad bit skeptical that I wouldn't like it. I typically either hate these super cliche "oh our families hate each other but we don't have to" stories or I love them. In this case, I l
Lenore Kosinski
Jan 08, 2019 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: netgalley

I received a free copy through NetGalley in exchange for an honest and unbiased review/opinion.

3.5 stars — This one ended up being a little weird for me, b/c the thing I usually love most about a book is characters…read any of my reviews, it’s always about the characters. Normally if I can’t connect with them, the book is just not going to hold my attention. But this was my exception to the rule!! Because truly, the exploration of what a family would go th
Nia •ShadesOfPaper•
You can find this review and others on my blog shades of paper

I didn’t know what to expect when I first started this book, because even though the synopsis sounded pretty interesting when I read it for the first time, I completely forgot about it when I decided to pick it up, and I must say I ended up being pleasantly surprised with this book, and at how much I enjoyed it.

The author did such an incredible job at writing the portrayal of loss and grief. I haven’t experience any of the things thes
Jan 27, 2019 rated it liked it
**I received an ARC from NetGalley and the publisher in exchange for my honest review.**

Cute, fluffy ya books are one of my many weaknesses so as I'm sure you can guess I was pretty excited to pick this book up. I've never read one of Abigail Johnson's books before but the description sounded interesting enough. When I first picked this book up I was expecting a quick and fluffy read with some emotional problems thrown in, instead I got a lot of emotional problems with some romance thrown in per
Johanna Montilla
Dec 10, 2018 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
I finished this book I a few days ago, but I haven’t had the time to write the review. Now that I’m sitting in front of my computer, all the feelings I had when I read the last word are back.
I’ve read many heartbroken books, like a lot, but Even if I fall is extraordinarily sad.
From the first page, there is this anguish, guilt, and lost. It was hard to find the threat of hope every story has, but it was there, finally.
Wait, don’t be scared, this book is amazing, with a deep complex plot, more o
Susan's Reviews
Feb 03, 2019 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
I enjoyed this heart-warming spin on the Romeo/Juliet tragedy, but this story focuses on how the death of a loved one affects the family members who are left behind. Brooke's brother Jason is in jail for killing Heath's brother Cal. Brooke's and Heath's families are still struggling to come to terms with the terrible tragedy that has changed all of their lives. When Brooke and Heath become unlikely friends - finding an outlet for their grief by talking about their current difficulties in adjusti ...more
Brooke pressured Jason "tell me who else was there that night Jase?" he slammed his hands against the table to push himself away, and he got up and told the guard "I'm ready to go back".

Talk about suspense, mystery and a who, how and why plot. Oh my goodness this book has got it for sure. I could not read the pages fast enough. I had to find out what was going to happen next. It also has pain, heartbreak, resentment, hatred, and a slow journey to healing.

Would I recommend this book? Yes, with
Celia McMahon
Jan 16, 2019 rated it it was amazing
Thanks, Netgalley!!

Wow, just wow. I was blown away by this book. Astounded doesn't even begin to cover it.

Brooke's family falls apart after her brother confesses to murder. I mean, that line right there should be enough for you to pick up this book. The inner turmoil of her family and Brooke is enough to break your heart.

If I had to break it down, I would tell you this: This book is part heartbreak and part mystery. Throw in some romance and well-written characters, and you have the perfect boo
Nov 20, 2018 rated it really liked it
[I received an electronic review copy of this book from Netgalley in exchange for an honest review. All opinions are my own.]

4.5 stars. Stunning! This was terrific. I loved the characters and the raw, emotionally complicated story. All of the emotions and angst, the families' coping strategies - all of it felt believable. The story is wrapped up in a satisfying way, but without any cheesy happily-ever-after. The ending was true to the complexity of the story and the characters and the tone of th
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